LIFE

dope

2011-09-14T07:56:00.001-07:00

..

2011-09-11T20:50:00.000-07:00

.

2011-09-11T20:37:00.001-07:00

these are just so totally random!

2011-08-12T20:23:00.000-07:00

hey yo girl hey YO girl

2011-08-07T20:25:00.000-07:00

slothyawn

2011-08-06T07:31:00.001-07:00

BABYSLOTHYAWN

411244121

2011-07-05T07:39:00.000-07:00

reflect in silence

2011-05-28T17:27:00.000-07:00

I am angry

2011-05-28T16:43:00.000-07:00

So yeah maybe I am into different things than you
I sit when I pee and I stand when I poo.
Flying through the stars stopping at celestial bars driving drunk flying cars with my good friend Lars.
Runnin out of gas wanna sip from the flask nah man thanks but I'll pass grab a girl by the hand and let the other hand land on the land that's been banned.
Calm down now don't have a cow so much pow around here you need a snow plow
Sage needs some doggie chow no wait kibbles and bits take nibbles and it's off to the races so tighten up your laces and pace yourself and you may taste the wealth

storm

2011-05-11T20:43:00.000-07:00

hey

2011-04-02T21:18:00.000-07:00

Ant Farm

2011-04-02T14:11:00.000-07:00

ANT FARM

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2011-02-20T19:05:00.000-08:00

pitchers

2011-02-08T19:12:00.001-08:00

2011-02-01T16:49:00.000-08:00

1/29/11

2011-01-29T18:03:00.000-08:00

SAGE SAGE SAGE SAGE SAGE SAGE SAGE SAGE SAGE SAGE SAGE

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break

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oooooo

ooooo

2011-01-03T19:42:00.000-08:00

Check THIS out!

newyearseve

2010-12-31T12:23:00.001-08:00

pictures

2010-12-10T14:22:00.000-08:00

!

2010-12-06T22:01:00.000-08:00

these are always so random!

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.

2010-12-02T21:18:00.000-08:00

pics

2010-11-20T07:14:00.001-08:00

Coming up soon!

2010-10-31T11:42:00.001-07:00

fall is beautiful

2010-10-27T23:23:00.001-07:00

a

2010-10-17T21:49:00.000-07:00

phonepictures

2010-10-17T21:05:00.001-07:00

350th post

2010-10-15T17:58:00.000-07:00

it's almost halloween

2010-10-13T22:48:00.000-07:00

10 10 10

2010-10-09T23:28:00.000-07:00

my new bike

2010-10-01T19:46:00.000-07:00

is not this one. but I will have it soon.

but this video is great.

Tyler Johnson talks about the Shadow from Matt Lingo on Vimeo.

hello

2010-09-21T13:09:00.001-07:00

pictures

2010-09-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

pictures

2010-09-01T05:43:00.000-07:00

Skill Methods

2010-08-29T07:34:00.000-07:00

the Squadron

2010-08-28T05:26:00.000-07:00

The Streak from RoxRite on Vimeo.

2182601

2010-08-26T11:30:00.000-07:00

video

2010-08-25T19:47:00.000-07:00

lotsa pictures

2010-08-25T19:26:00.000-07:00

Tuesday

2010-08-24T07:23:00.000-07:00

pics

2010-08-21T05:25:00.000-07:00

..

2010-08-19T09:12:00.000-07:00

.

2010-08-19T06:33:00.001-07:00

phone

2010-08-12T19:43:00.001-07:00

Devourment!! Dying Fetus!

2010-08-12T11:13:00.000-07:00

two bands I have really liked for a long time and am finally going to be able to see!
Cannibal Corpse
Vital Remains
Dying Fetus
Devourment

November 23rd
Grand Rapids

Brutal Death Metal

2010-08-11T04:02:00.000-07:00

new Cerebral Bore video

Cerebral Effusion rehearsal footage

Cerebral Effusion- Flesh Art video

2010-07-04T19:10:00.000-07:00

2010-07-04T16:37:00.000-07:00

happy 4th of july

2010-07-04T05:46:00.000-07:00

Texas

2010-06-23T06:48:00.000-07:00

spent some time in dallas, now in houston. it is very hot. I am having a very fun and relaxing time. Meeting new nice people and cute babies/kids.

Cerebral Incubation

2010-06-14T05:06:00.000-07:00

This band has grown and grown on me.
awesome groovy slams with great vocals.

Check out Blistering Uteral Infection. They just posted it. I love it. I love the drums.

GoRgE

2010-06-10T15:22:00.000-07:00

eating too much food is bad for you. put your nose inside my shoe. life is tough and all that stuff. but who cares really?
change is on the horizon.
I got a bike.
I am going to Texas soon.
my dog is epileptic.
I have almost gone a whole week without a shower.
My sister is in Hawaii.
I made a good stir-fry yesterday, this is a big deal.
I need to shave. I just flossed.

Awesome stuff

2010-06-05T13:30:00.000-07:00

Tom LaMarche's amazing hop from swoo on Vimeo.

http://www.myspace.com/inheritdisease
http://www.myspace.com/shortbuspileup

I have sun poisoning

2010-05-27T04:15:00.001-07:00

may20

2010-05-20T07:43:00.000-07:00

bright and early

2010-05-15T04:25:00.001-07:00

earth day

2010-04-22T09:34:00.000-07:00

apr8

2010-04-08T14:37:00.000-07:00

Dance
Laundry
Food
Guitar

Need to work more
Need to save money.

Need to learn Spanish.

apr6

2010-04-06T08:03:00.000-07:00

me juggling.

AS THE MAN STOOD STILL, LOOKING UP AT THE DARK SKY, HE JUMPED OUT OF HIMSELF AND BEGAN HIS JOURNEY. HE KNEW HE DID NOT HAVE AS LONG AS HE WOULD LIKE BUT HE WANTED TO TRY TO MAKE IT AT LEAST TO WHERE HE HAD STOPPED THE LAST TIME. THE CLOUDS WERE FLOATING BY HIM WITH SUCH EASE. HE WAS SO PLEASED TO MOMENTARILY FORGET ABOUT HIS DISEASE. HE WAS SO FAR AWAY NOW THAT HE WAS GROWING CONCERNED ABOUT HIS RETURN. LAST TIME HAD BEEN SIMPLE, NO RUSH, NO STRESS. HE SHOULD HAVE WAITED, BUT THERE WAS NO USE THINKING ABOUT IT NOW! HE QUICKLY SPUN HIS HEAD AROUND, OPENED HIS EYES AS WIDE AS THEY COULD GO, AND STARTED RUNNING. HE WAS PASSING ALL HIS FAVORITE THINGS BUT HAD NO TIME TO STOP! LITTLE BIRDS, LEMURS, DOGS, OLD FRIENDS, FAVORITE SONGS, COFFEE, CUDDLING, WARMTH, STARS, MOONS---HE WAS BEING TESTED. HE KEPT RUNNING THROUGH ALL OF IT, EVEN THOUGH IT MADE NO SENSE TO HIM.
HE MADE IT.

mar27

2010-03-27T08:22:00.000-07:00

mar25

2010-03-25T09:23:00.001-07:00

mar4

2010-03-04T09:54:00.000-08:00

the 25th

2010-02-25T12:14:00.000-08:00

Shea's Edit

2010-02-23T07:46:00.000-08:00

dope.

DPH Profile - Shea Hardacre from DPH on Vimeo.

Soul Step Dance Studio Showcase

2010-02-22T07:46:00.001-08:00

Soulstep crew 2/19/2010 from Zeb Krumlauf on Vimeo.

pics

2010-02-21T18:45:00.001-08:00

sticks of deodorant

2010-02-18T08:45:00.000-08:00

let me tell you something, just keep it going. whatever you do, dont stop. in fact, do it even more than you did yesterday. it's a cold world out there, so hang in there bud! take your fingers out of the mud, find some warm socks, and learn to whistle, cause you know what? this beat aint gonna last forever! grap ahold of it and RIDE.

Beast In the Field- New Song

2010-02-17T11:11:00.000-08:00

soooooooo good.

me

2010-02-17T07:35:00.000-08:00

feb 16th 2010

2010-02-16T10:09:00.000-08:00

With my current lack of work, I try to keep occupied by doing the following:
-LAUNDRY
-JUGGLING
-PLAYING GUITAR
-THINKING
-SEEING HOW LONG I CAN HOLD MY BREATH
-WRITING

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this Friday is the Soul Step Dance Studio Showcase. I am excited and nervous.

I am always cold and hungry.
I am ready for spring.

cannot sleep

2010-02-14T23:10:00.000-08:00

Airlplanes to MI from AK

2010-02-10T13:22:00.000-08:00

The following three albums were listened to and written about on airplanes, the day after thanksgiving, 2009. I have decided to type them word for word, poor sentence structure included. I was quickly writing as I listened, so please excuse the strange wording and structure used throughout.

Pus Vomit- Degrade the Worthless- 2009 Philippines
Genre=Slam Death Metal

SONG 1:SHE DIED A VIRGIN:
Stupid, disgusting sample that i have never heard. I hate it. Samples are way over used and I wish they were not so intentionally gross! This sounds like Willem Dafoe.
Fuzzy production, ok gutturals and pretty cool guitar. Drums so far are great. Fast and clever. The vocalist has a kind of annoying mid-range pig squeal that I hope he doesn't use too often.

SONG 2:SOAKED IN HER OWN BLOOD:
I love a lot of these guitar parts, but hate how it's recorded. 1:30 turns brutally awesome and this track just gets better from there.

SONG 3:GOD HELP ME RAPE THE DEAD:
Very cool part at :17 and then at 1:00 it all goes nuts and gets boring. At 1:55 there is a slow double bass part that should be used more.

SONG 4:PUNGENT ROTTING FLESH:
Off kilter, unnecessary pinch harmonics peppered over a lame intro. A lot of random parts in this track and I don't like how they are put together, or lack thereof.

SONG 5:SELF INFLICTED WOUND:
Awesome clever drumming saves the day again! 1:20 is a super weird part with kind of barking vocals. Everything slows down around 2:00 and is boring from there.

SONG 6:DEAD FOR RENT:
Best intro so far. Best vocals so far. Nice groove at about 1:00 and slows down to get even better. Weird guitar parts. Awesome jumping time changes at 2:20! ya!

SONG 7:YOUR DEAD BODY I MOLEST:
Straight forward intro, showcasing the whole band. Slows down at 1:00 and sounds like everything else. Extremely surprising awesome part at 1:40! Then just simplifies and repeats. fun song, so far my favorite.

SONG 8:DEAD REMAINS:
Awesome vocal range displayed during intro. Horrible vocals patterns and placement displayed throughout whole song. Very annoying track.

SONG9:RETCHING LACERATED ENTRAILS:
Better. Catchy guitar. Way better vocals. FUCKING AWESOME 'stabbing' vocals at :55! Long build up of tiny parts gets resolved at 2:30.

SONG 10:DISMEMBERED VIRGIN LIMBS:
Generic sample, not disgusting so I can stand it. Catchy, playful part at 1:30. Awesome time change part at 2:26. 2:40= palm mutes and squeels surprisingly not too annoying. Pretty lame album ender though.

Vulvectomy- Putrescent Clitoral Fermentation- 2007 Italy
Genre= Slam Death Metal

SONG 1: Festering Detached Genitals:
Stupid sample. I like the tones right of the bat. Good vocals. Amazing flow and time change. Gets slower than most bands dare to. This has to be a drum machine. 2:20 is great. Repeats, slows down, speeds up. I really like how these drums are programmed.

SONG 2: Pusfull Hymen Liquified:
Again, very cool flow, blended well. Most bands who use drum machines tend to overdue it, but this is perfect. and these songs actually have parts and structure and great smooth transitioning. The vocals on this track got pretty annoying though.

SONG 3: Depilated Cunt Twitch:
Wow, this doesn't sound like a new song at all! I love the drums here! Just listening to the first three tracks has me wondering if the guitarist is also the vocalist. 3:20 is a refreshing change that should last longer.

SONG 4: Masturbating with Defecated Entrails:
Dumb sample of a crying woman. right at :53, before a slow slammy part, is a bass drop that I found rather humorous, but it fits. This song seems to be one huge slow riff with small faster parts to break it up, as opposed to the other way around. Boring!

SONG 5:Putrescent Clitoral Fermentation:
Favorite song so far.
I am on an airplane and just got really tired. I am going to sleep.

Devourment- Unleash The Carnivore- 2009- Texas
Genre= Slam Death Metal

SONG 1: Unleash The Carnivores:
Pretty boring until the end when a slow slam takes over.

SONG 2: Abomination Unseen:
Good, non-disgusting sample. Very strange and rare chord progression for the genre. Refreshing. I like the drums here. 1:50 = sweet, slow slamming with great gutturals throughout. The vocals are great so far because there is plenty of old Devourment, just not as sloppy. Great!

SONG 3: Fed To The Pigs:
Hectic, tense, very creative drumming. Vocal fade in, which I hate. Awesome flow at 1:00. Even better at 1:30. This track is not boring and perfectly transition from part to part. Awesome drums too!

SONG 4: Incitement To Mass Murder:
Right away vocal blend and groovy chugs with slow drumming. 1:00 slows way down. Kinda boring. 1:22- new, different low vocal style. I liked it. Sound like an effect put over the vocals. 2:15-great, simple groove.

SONG 5: Crucify The Impure:
I hate the beginning of this song. Gets better at 1:20, but repeats too much. Awesomeness at 3:00 saved this track for me. Very simple guitar work put together creatively. Outro is very nice too!

SONG 6: Deflesh The Abducted:
Great beginning with exciting drums. Perfect example here how how to repeat a riff, slow it down, and still be great. Breakdown part right around 2:00 is my favorite part thus far on the album because of what the drums are doing. Pretty cool slam part starts at 3:30, sprinkled with intricate, hard to hear drum fills. Yeah baby!!!

SONG 7: Over Her Dead Body:
Hectic, all over the place intro here leading to a steady groove with nicely placed vocals. Sounds like old Devourment! ya! 1:45ish is awesome. Favorite track so far!

SONG 8: Field Of The Impaled:
Very catchy and different intro. I LOVE how the vocals come in here!!! Pretty straight forward layout until 1:23, where it kind of 'sways' or something? it's awesome. Then speeds up and at 2:00 minutes maybe all that changes is the drumming but it sounds like a whole new part. 2:30- fuzzy bass build up into slow slams with great drums and leads up to a blend of everything thing to end the NO WAIT!!!! It sounded like it was about to end but right at 3:45 it comes back in with by far the best part of the album! It repeats and fades out to end the album, which is usually lame, but not here. I really never wanted that last riff to end. And the drummer kept it exciting again!

FOR YOUR HEALTH

2010-02-02T08:27:00.000-08:00

listen to the thunder and take care of yourself! Eat healthy! The wind is mighty and can carry you far babe! Turn around, stick it out! I'm fine with that. I am a fat person so as you could imagine, I am getting pretty hungry typing this, even though it has not much to do with food! Wow, I am sooooo fat! My name should be legally changed to Fatty Fatty Fat Fat. Yes, I think that would suit me just fine. Oh, by the way, ice cream is a drug. I am an addict. I also enjoy Gwockermoleee. with chips!
Look at your watch. Is it past 8:30pm?? You really should not eat anything at all if it his. Maybe just settle for a glass of water, or even juice, and call it a night. Read something, see what's on the tube, clean your room, I really don't care what you do just please do not make a habit of LATE_NIGHT_MUNCHING.
My whole life, right before bed, I would eat dinner. Look at me today. I resemble a beached whale. Don't do this to yourself.
What happens when you eat to late? Your body does absolutly zero digesting while you sleep. The food turn directly into lard. I am addicted. I cannot stop. I no longer eat breakfast or lunch, just a gigantic 'midnight snack'. I have not pooped in years.

Please be careful.

january 24th 2009 phone

2010-01-24T09:30:00.000-08:00

long time no blog

2010-01-21T12:31:00.000-08:00

recently i have been taking about 5 dance classes a week. trying to find work where i can. watching movies. being cold. having intense dreams. thats about it i guess. i am going to try to start updating this thing more often. like i used to.

NYE

2009-12-31T09:50:00.000-08:00

The old man stumbled down the street on his aged, worn in feet.
his new life is slow, a broken heart beat keeps time.
things will never be the same.
He thinks back to certain times and starts to cry.
Wiping his tears, he starts heading back home.
Forever just keeps going.

Complications turned into confusion!
Many people, not much time, running wild, committing crime.
The hawks fly high, and by and by they try to spot a mouse.
The world is ending, but not at my house.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS

2009-12-24T20:38:00.001-08:00

busy

2009-12-19T15:18:00.000-08:00

or at least i feel busy.
tired.
happy. lots of :
dance class
working
eating
laying around
thats about it i guess
. cant wait for the holiday season to be over.

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2009-12-14T06:50:00.000-08:00

The sun will come out tomorrow.

2009-12-11T16:05:00.000-08:00

Today I saw a lot of snow. Oh how bright the snow glows. It blinds my eyes at first sight! And when I go into buildings it is hard for my eyes to adjust. Oh sleepy eyes I have all day! This afternoon I worked for hours, then ate. Full like the moon, I consumed everything on my plate. I cannot wait to see the sun again!

BACK IN MICHIGAN

2009-12-01T05:33:00.000-08:00

It feels very nice. reunited with people. overwhelming at first. loving it. went to house class last night. loving it. made me pumped for more. breakdance class thursday. going to the fudge store today to figure out when i will work! wish me luck!

airplane

2009-11-26T23:12:00.000-08:00

about to get on one. ahahahaha!
weird feeling of butterflies.
thanksgiving was good. tons of great food and extreme laughter.
that is all.

crinkles

2009-11-26T04:14:00.000-08:00

I am a smooth but crinkly summertime noise maker. I used to be a friend of those who peeled off their bubble faced piano parties.
La La La........you may say other things are the things that are muffled by the sliding of the sushi and the saliva that burns through the night.

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2009-11-23T01:23:00.000-08:00

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I used to be a little less relaxed than I am these days.
That is, in part, due to moving away from everything I knew with little to no preparation. It was all I could do when I arrived to try not to worry about things too much. I did okay for a while, actually, I did very well! It is getting better still even though I move back in less than a week now. I will still be paying rent here so that is my only actual 'worry'. Still, I'm not that worried about it. Things will work out, they always do. It may be a pain in the bum for awhile, having to seriously save every penny until I feel somewhat financially stable enough to do the boom and bam and slap and tap. I mean, I will have some guaranteed hours at the fudge store, and I will be immediately looking for a second job. It is a silly pain in the cash-ass to have to pay rent somewhere where I don't live, But I DID sign the lease! It would be very nice if my replacement magically showed up very very soon and took over my rent for me, but not too likely. Luckily, I am able to hold tightly onto the reigns of my 'good attitude horse' while he jumps over puddles and gallops through rivers of bad luck and misfortune. My horse is on it's way to a bright and amazing place, a place where time jerks people back to reality.

soon

2009-11-22T04:41:00.000-08:00

hopefully very soon

came to a place with wheels and tires

2009-11-22T04:24:00.000-08:00

and i looked over the edge of a bond i had formed with the animals on the bank of the river. they were cute, fluffy, and scared shitless.
The tunnel of spooky spirit slinkies was fading into the clouds, no longer in earshot. My father is a warrior from Dunwich. His eyes are black holes and his body a temple of flame. point is, I am only here because of the parts that played a part in parting out the parts of I. That being said, I don't know for sure where life will take me and who i will meet or not meet.

Never Let Up

2009-11-20T00:11:00.000-08:00

Physically challenging activities and scientific powers.
Wild animals and brain cells forming magical towers.
One steady beat can make me feel amazing and free.
The elimination of us, leaving only me.

I am not an actor, but i will act this out
to the best of my ability and i will try not to shout.
My ability interrupted your tranquility and you tuned it out!
I will gently peel and pull until you feel what I'm about.

Alaska

2009-11-19T10:11:00.000-08:00

AS IT GETS COLDER AND COLDER AND I GET OLDER,
I FEEL AS IF THE EARTH AROUND ME IS WORTH MORE THAN WHAT MOST PEOPLE KNOW.
IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL HERE, AND THERE ARE A LOT OF STRESSED OUT ASS-FACES.
THERE ARE A LOT OF CHILL RELAXED NICE PEOPLE AS WELL, JUST HARDER TO FIND.
AND WHEN YOU FIND THEM, THEY ALWAYS BRING UP HOW THEY DON'T LIKE ALASKA.
THEY WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE WITH MORE OPEN MINDS AND LESS RAPE.
I MYSELF HAVE LEARNED THAT THE NEXT PLACE I MOVE WILL BE WARM RATHER THAN COLD.
AND STEERING CLEAR OF RAPE IS ALWAYS A GOOD THING TO DO. ALSO, HAVING ROOMMATES IS SUPER DUMB. BUT LIVING ON MY OWN WOULD BE SO VERY EXPENSIVE. ANDI CAN ONLY PUT SO MUCH MONEY INTO ONE THING BEFORE IT STARTS TO FEEL LIKE A WASTE. LIKE I COULD BE PAYING WAY LESS FOR RENT AND DOING OTHER AWESOME THINGS WITH MY MONEY.

First Fixed Gear Fakie Wheelie Ever On Film

2009-11-19T01:53:00.000-08:00

Truly Fucking Amazing

Joel Weston from MACAFRAMA on Vimeo.

waky waky eggz n' baky

2009-11-19T01:12:00.000-08:00

I hold my chalice to the spout poking out of your brain
while our words dance like earthworms trying to get out of the rain,
and I will butcher your judgments, cut them in two
because i may be nocturnal, but so are you
and I may be indolent at times, but hey, my pig flew!

If you learn to transform your choler, you will go far.
If you cannot put down a bottle, you belong in the bar!

Our mind's are busy, intractable areas.
They house negative and positive thoughts and everything in between.

pictures i like

2009-11-17T10:28:00.000-08:00

of people i miss and can't wait to see again.

NO YES NO YES

2009-11-15T22:56:00.000-08:00

WHEN THEY LOOKED AT THE POSITION THEY WERE IN, THE BUBBLES ROSE TO THE TOP OF THE POT AND NO ONE WAS GOING TO CLEAN UP AFTER THEM!
THE CHOICE TO TRANSCEND OR TO LOVE OR TO HATE OR TO SLEEP OR TO GO SEE A PLAY. GO TO COLLEGE. FIX THINGS. GET TO WORK. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I TOOK A CLASS ONCE CALLED "PARALLEL RELATIONS OF SEXUAL SARCASMS"
OH LOOK AT THIS GUY, HE CAN PLAY THE PIANO! NO BUT SERIOUSLY, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
DO YOU LIKE MUSIC? DO YOU LIKE ART? DO YOU LIKE STOP SIGNS? ROAD BLOCKS? GREEN LIGHTS? POST CARDS? VHS TAPES? DUDES? GALS? DORKS? HEAVY MACHINERY? IT'S A;; PART OF LIFE MY FRIEND.
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THE CARPET HERE IS SOFT ON MY TOES, BUT MY TOES ARE ALWAYS VERY COLD.
AS PEOPLE GET OLD THEY BREAK THE MOLD MAKE THE FOLD AND WALK AROUND AND DO WHAT THEY'RE TOLD.
I AM A CAT AND I WILL SCRATCH YOU.
IF YOU TRY TO RUN, I WILL CATCH YOU.
BIG HOUSES CONTAIN BIG SECRETS.
DO NOT PUT A LABEL ON ME!
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FREEZE! PUT YOUR HANDS IN THE AIR! GO FUCK YOURSELF WHILE YOU PULL OUT YOUR HAIR!
I'M SOAKING WET AND READY FOR MORE. LIFE CAN BE FUN OR LIFE CAN BE A BORE?
I MAKE THE LAWS HERE GOD DAMMIT.

LATE NIGHTS LEADING TO DEEP SLEEP

2009-11-14T03:48:00.000-08:00

MILES FROM HOME, MAKING GOOD TIME.
TRYING AND SUCCEEDING TO COUGH UP MY SLIME.
READING BOOKS TO STAY AWAKE AND READING BOOKS TO FALL ASLEEP,
SOME NIGHTS I FEEL SO NORMAL AND SOME I FEEL LIKE A CREEP.
I USED TO THINK THAT MY TIME WAS LIMITED BUT NOW I KNOW THAT TIME IS ALL I HAVE,
I HAVE A LOT TO GIVE AND THERE IS A LOT TO GAIN,
AND JUST BECAUSE IT HURTS, THAT DOES NOT MAKE IT PAIN.

THE ROOM IS FILLING UP WITH SMOKE AND MY MIND IS ELSEWHERE.
THE NOTES FROM THE MAN'S GUITAR ARE SCRAPING AT MY BRAIN.
LIKE A RAKE ON THE NAKED PAVEMENT.
I AM ENJOYING THE BEAUTIFUL SKY EVERYDAY WHILE I AM HERE,
AND MAKING SURE NOT TO SHY AWAY FROM THE THINGS I FEAR.

TODAY THE WIND BLEW WHAT LITTLE HAIR I HAVE TO THE SIDE,
THE HAIR WAS FLOWING LIKE A RIVER, AN ICE COLD RIVER.
I HELD MY BREATH.............
WAS I BEING WATCHED? I KNEW I SHOULD OPEN MY EYES.
I WISH I WOULD HAVE SEEN IT COMING, BUT MY EYES WOULD NOT OPEN.
I COULD FEEL IT THOUGH, COMING DIRECTLY TOWARDS ME TO STEAL MY THOUGHTS.
NO....WAIT, IT WAS LOOKING FOR SOMETHING. BUT WHAT?

"AM I DREAMING"
THE THOUGHT WAS ONE OFTEN TOSSED AROUND IN HIS PITIFUL BRAIN.
HE WORE A WHITE ROBE AND RODE A HORSE DOWN THE ROAD.
HE DRANK A HEAVY LOAD OF WHATEVER WAS IN HIS BOTTLE.
HE REACHED INTO THE SKY AND CLASPED TIGHTLY ONTO THE THROTTLE.
HIS EYEBROWS WERE DARK AND THICK AND PRETTY DISPLEASING TO LOOK AT.
HE WAS STRONG, BUT NOT MENTALLY. ONLY PHYSICALLY.

HIS SKIN WAS OLD AND LEATHERY, LIKE THAT OF FATHER TIME HIMSELF.
TIME HAD PLAYED IT'S VICIOUS ROLE IN MAKING HIM A CRUDE OLD MAN.
GRAVITY HAD BEEN BUSY TOO, SHOWING THE MAN'S NEIGHBORS JUST HOW SAGGY AN OLD WRETCHED FACE COULD GET.
HE ATE OFTEN AND ATE LIKE A GENTLEMAN.
HIS WIFE HAD DIED IN A CAR ACCIDENT YEARS BEFORE AND HE HAD TURNED TO WHISKEY TO NUMB HIS BRAIN.
UNABLE TO EVER FLUSH HER OUT, HE WOULD DRINK UNTIL HE SWELLED UP LIKE A HUGE, STINKY BLIMP EVERY NIGHT. HIS SMILE TURNED TO A FROWN AND HIS BOTTLE FELL TO THE GROUND AND IT WAS TIME FOR SLEEP.
THAT WAS ALL IN HIS PAST. THESE DAYS, HE WALKED HIS DOG OR RE-READ THE PAPER TO KILL THE TIME, STAYING OCCUPIED BEFORE HE DIED OR UNTIL HE CRIED AND HE PRIED AND PRIED.
HE WOULD PICK AND PRY AT HIS DREAMS, TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF THEM.
HE WOKE UP EVERY NIGHT TO PEE AND LET HIS DOG OUT TO PEE.

J Bird

2009-11-12T11:33:00.001-08:00

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oh my god.

2009-11-12T10:10:00.001-08:00